FindChaos: The Official Blog of A. Stiffler

Professional illustrator, comic artist, graphic designer and avid birder. Stuff I draw and other nonsense.
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ChaosLife: Furred Frenzy

A question for the ages. (Hey, that’s a cool mug!)


Asker Anonymous Asks:
What's your take on the whole recent(?) TERF movement? Specifically, how they keep saying that it's fine to dress and act how you like, as long as you accept that you are [insert assigned gender here] and don't claim to be otherwise. This apparently includes things such as expecting trans* women to keep out of "women's spaces" such as female bathrooms etc.
findchaos findchaos Said:


Interesting question.

This is my take on TERF’s: 

If I might add my own two cents:

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Asker Anonymous Asks:
are you answering questions right now?
findchaos findchaos Said:


You can’t not read it in his voice. Also, yay!

Unlikely pals.

A snake in the hand…

Do you have any suggestions on a good way to get yourself motivated to draw? (I use to draw a lot and loved it for years, but for the past months, I can't even doodle)
findchaos findchaos Said:

Honestly, what gets you motivated is going to be different for everyone. On the upside(?), falling into a creative slump is completely normal — I can’t name a single creator that I know of who hasn’t experienced a temporary dry spell. There are loads of things you can try to get out of it, such as:

  • Don’t freak out about it. Beating yourself up about not creating art is the surest way to add to your block and make the creative experience something stressful and guilt-ridden. Remind yourself that it just happens, it’s temporary, and it’s okay to take a break.
  • Expand your horizons. Everyone has a favorite style, favorite mediums, favorite inspirations, favorite music to listen to while creating, favorite time of day/night, etc., etc. Shake things up and try different things. Even if they don’t click with you, you might be moved in the right direction or realize why certain parts of your old routine worked for you.
  • Go for a walk. It’s a scientific fact that stimulating the parts of your brain in control of motor skills like walking also stimulates creative thinking and problem-solving. If I’m stumped on a project, a long walk usually inspires a solution, even if I wasn’t actively thinking about the issue. Weird, but effective!
  • Accept failure. Sometimes getting over a rut means dealing with the fact that what you create during it won’t be up to your personal standards. Trying to force a masterpiece into existence when you’re not feeling inspired will only add to your frustration, so… don’t. Draw something fun, draw something random, draw and prepare to laugh at your screw ups. Creating anything at all is good for you and might even highlight some underlying problems contributing to your block.
  • On that token, give yourself a goal. Draw one small thing a day, make one art piece a week, or create a series over the course of a month. Whatever you think you can stick to, dedicate yourself to that. Having a recurring deadline can be the motivation you need to keep making art.

Beyond all of that advice, the simplest piece I have is: Wait. It will pass. It wasn’t long ago that I would simply not draw for weeks at a time and experienced frequent art blocks, but trying the advice above always got me out of it one way or the other. It’s not just you and your creativity isn’t a finite resource, it just ebbs and flows. Remember that.



Good luck with everything!

Asker Anonymous Asks:
Why are there ONLY butch/femme lesbian couples???
findchaos findchaos Said:


There aren’t"only" those couples.

In fact, and this might surprise you, lesbians (and women in general) are individual people with individual preferences in their partner(s). You can find out more about that here, in our comic Lesbians 101.

Of course, butch/femme couples do indeed exist, but the prevalence of people saying they only see them in-person I chalk up to:

1. Heteronormativity. It’s easy to pick out people who look like “couples” when the default is two cis opposite-sex people. In point of fact, it’s ridiculous how many of my straight, femme women friends are mistaken for lesbians simply because they choose to be around butch or MOC women friends (who sometimes happen to be straight, too!). They aren’t a couple, but people automatically assume it must be so based on outdated and ridiculous couple stereotypes. There must be a polar dynamic in order for a relationship to form, and if two opposites are together, well, golly, they’re certainly fucking!

And related to that is:

2. Femme Invisibility. That’s a term used mostly in the lesbian community that basically means femme lesbians are overlooked as “real lesbians” or go unnoticed as queer altogether, both by heterosexual people and queer people. I’ve experienced it myself, it’s very real and very silly.

And on that token, I’ve also experienced what I like to call:

3. Double-Femme-Invisbility. Basically, people don’t fucking notice two femme lesbians. Those two women in skirts and heels sitting at Starbucks? “Friends out for coffee, definitely not a couple!” Those long-haired girls with pink nails browsing the make-up aisle together? “Friends picking out makeup for each other, definitely not lesbians!” Those two older women walking through a wooded ravine with their fashionable scarves? “It’s nice that grandma has a friend! Absolutely never lesbians.” Two ladies sitting in a pediatricians’ office, kids running rampant? “Too bad those women’s husbands couldn’t make it to the doctor visit! Surely they aren’t lesbians!”

First-hand, when I’ve dated more feminine women: Men still hit on us. If we said “We’re actually a couple. Dating. Lesbians!”? Men would argue with us about the validity of that since we both looked “so girly.” People at stores and restaurants would regularly ask if we were “sisters” and if we said no, they would remark on how nice it was to see such close friends. In a lesser way, this one applies to butch/butch couples as well.  While people might more readily assume they’re queer in some way, they rarely assume two MOC women are a couple. Stereotypes definitely factor in to confirmation bias and it sucks.

Am I saying there are no butch/femme couples? No, of course not. Just that they’re not the ONLY lesbian couples out there. I know plenty of butch/femme lesbian couples, some people’s entire social circles are made up of such couples. But, then again, some people’s entire social circles are made up of only white, heterosexual cis couples, so don’t always believe that correlation implies causation.

There are many wonderful ‘samesies’ lesbian couples out there, just as there are unique people with unique preferences.

So, expand your mind a bit, look beyond your stereotyping and come to accept that there’s more to life than your weird and wacky confirmation bias.

Asker angelblack3 Asks:
If you and Stiffler are in a monogamous relationship and are [presumably] free of STDs or at least ones that are harmful, how come you both use protection during hanky panky?
findchaos findchaos Said:


We regularly use condoms during sex, but we don’t use things like dental dams, finger condoms or any other form of protective covering/protection during sex, which would be important if we had any communicable diseases we didn’t want to contract from each other — and are important for anyone participating in sex to be aware of and use diligently if they aren’t “fluid bonded” like we are.

To the crux of the issue, we personally use condoms for several reasons:

    • It’s easier to switch up orifices. We might like getting our cock (strap-on) sucked, but we don’t like ass-to-mouth. It’s also healthier for vaginal penetration if we’re using the same toy for anal to simply take off the (used) condom and apply a clean one. They work for fingers in much the same way, too and you don’t have to worry about bacteria trapped under nails after a round.

    • Toys can’t be implicitly trusted! You can read about fake toys in this lovely article here, which is sadly a very pervasive problem in the sex-toy industry and there’s no way to tell with 100% certainty (other than buying directly from smaller companies) that the toy you’re buying isn’t a knock off. And some toys are made with porous materials that can lock in bacteria. And some toys are made of materials that could be hazardous to delicate skin or cause allergic reactions. It’s simply safer and more practical to use a condom with every toy we have, whether or not it’s penetrative.*

    • Added lubrication or sensations. Most condoms come with added lube on the inside and outside, making any sex (penetrative or not) more enjoyable. You can also buy ones with fun things like cooling mint, ribs and dots, flavors, warming sensations, etc., etc., that vary up sex.

    • Condoms are sexy. A lot of people don’t think so, because in most of media condoms are never shown and if they are, it’s usually a joke or to be absolutely eye-rolled at. In our bedroom, we have a pretty box dedicated to condoms with a little faux-gem handle on top. When we see that glamorous box sitting on the bedside table, we know that not just 69ing is about to happen, but the Full Monty of some kind will be going down. Putting the condom on is amazingly sexy, from the in-mouth technique to simply sliding it on a toy slowly or quickly before the toy is used. It’s a sexy way to not only initiate sex, but also to communicate in our relationship what type of sex we’re going to have and a type of mental foreplay that’s very satisfying. And it’s always sexy when you care about your partner’s health and well-being.

    • Communication is sexy. Speaking of communication, simply buying condoms (whether interesting flavors/shapes/etc. or not) helps us initiate a conversation about our sexual preferences and desires. Why those particular condoms, what we’d like to do with them, things we haven’t enjoyed about previous types, things we highly enjoy about past sex acts, etc. It helps us stay abreast (ha) of our current sexual preferences and desires in an easy, fun way that can also spark new ideas to experiment with.

    • Roleplay is sexy. I’ve mentioned it before, but my spouse and I like to roleplay and sometimes that means roleplaying during sex. Having condoms handy means that some of the roleplaying is even more realistic and by that benefit, even naughtier than imagined.

    • It helps with BDSM. We also practice a lot of (safe, consensual) BDSM — condoms are yet another way for us to be either assertive or passive in sex. By having the other person put on the condom, especially while they’re restrained in some way, it’s a form of the dom/sub/switch relationship we’ve built with each other to be exercised in a very sexual manner.

These are, at least, the main reason we use condoms. We love them, they’re safer and sexier than going without and we know our sex life is happy and full of randy times because we buy them frequently. Condoms are just another way for us to stay connected to each other in all aspects of our sex-life. <3

*Of course, we always clean our toys/restraints/sheets/hands/bodies thoroughly after sex and boil the toys we can every week, but it doesn’t hurt to take extra precautions when it comes to your sexual health and well-being.

Moral of this story: condoms do a hell of a lot more than catch fluids. Try them sometime!


Another preview of our Beyond Anthology comic, ‘The Next Day,’ as I finish up the the last few base ‘colors’ for it. Soon! <3

I’m so damned excited to see this in print. So, SO soon!