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I have yet to see Portlandia myself, but now I want to more than ever.

Sandman: The Animated Series

(Ha, I kid, could you imagine? I still can’t believe it took me this long to make some Sandman fan art, but hey, what’s a decade or two.)



There is a party in the shotgun house in the woods. It’s a cold December night and the only light for miles is this house, the only sound the crowd of people in it and the crackling of the woods around us.

I’m wearing a seafoam blue dress as I watch a tall man walk onto the porch from…

These are the sorts of stories I get to wake up every day to hear. K’s mind is a strange place with infinitely interesting tales rattling around. I hope she shares many, many more of them.

Guess which prints just made it into the Society6 shop?

Duality, What Time Is It?, Sandman Quartet, and Entropy! Not to mention, shipping is free worldwide through Sunday, Jan. 27!


Dream Journal
(with 5-minute sketches)

A shot rang out in the blackness. The lights went up slowly and I stood in a parking lot. There was a man lying dead in front of me, wearing oddly-shaped brown goggles and covered in blood. There was a neat bullet-hole in his forehead and an old camera by his side. I picked up the camera before the blood could pool over to it. I could hear the police coming in the distance.

An old man in a neat black suit approached me. He touched his long, hooked nose and sniffed derisively.

“You’ll do,” he creaked out.

He attached a pair of odd brown goggles around my head with a grimace, his bony fingers fixing them precisely over my eyes as I tried to lean back in disgust, but I found myself glued to the spot.

“Just don’t,” he said, gesturing to the corpse spilling out blood, “be like him and take a picture of my face…”

I nodded despite myself and followed him as we made our way from the scene, the police pulling up as we exited the parking lot.

We went past an alleyway first. There was a creature there, and I started back, afraid. The old man went forward, throwing his hand out.

“Picture, girl, picture!!”

His yell was enough for me to raise the camera to my goggles, taking the picture. The flash showed the creature in its full horror - a twisted not-man, more animal with a hunched back. The eyes were nonexistent and covered by thin flesh. The mouth had translucent strips of skin that stretched between the wide, long jaws — sharp teeth barely visible underneath as blood gushed forth from its maw. Long, bony remnants of twisted fingers dug into its prey, a young boy, as it devoured the stomach and entrails first with abandon, sewage spilling onto the concrete.

The old man walked on.

Next we came to a bench. From afar, it seemed a family sat on it, taking in the night air. Once closer, it was apparent that the bulbous group was attached - fat and stretch-marked skin pooling together in one continuous disgusting landslide until the carousel of faces, limbs and torsos was completely fused with each other. The breasts of the thing hung down like useless udders, red with feeding newly born fetus and half-grown babies. It cried into the night in a low rumble that was barely audible. I took a picture as the old man instructed. When I pushed up my goggles away from my line of vision, I couldn’t see the “family” anymore.

Finally, we came to a grocer’s stand. The vegetables and fruits had been long cleared away this time of night, leaving only an empty sarcophagus of a table, low and wooden with a beam splitting it in two. A woman, bereft of dignity, emaciated and with huge, bloodshot pleading eyes stared up from one side as I slipped the goggles back on. An infant, still rounded and pink, stared at her from the other side. They were divided. The infant had giant, red welts all over its skin from being attacked by bees, and cried and screamed in pain. The woman could only look upward and press her hand against the wooden barrier, cooing to the infant gently. Once the bees had stung, they would fall upon the woman’s side, dying and rotting there, turning into a million maggots that wiggled around and around her and then into her… into her mouth, nose, breasts… even eyes… And yet she still comforted the infant as best she could, never crying out in pain or anguish.

I asked her why. I asked her why she did this. Why stay here when it’s obvious she could go?

She looked at me with her bulging, ruddy eyes.

“The baby… it needs me… It has no one else…”

I lowered the camera and took the picture.

We walked on, the old man and I. Silently.

And this, ladies and gentlemen, is what I get to wake up and be told about some mornings. You marry a macabre writer, you get a macabre writer. I love it every second.




This is a poem I wrote as a gift for my friends, K and A. They love The Sandman comic by Neil Gaiman, as do I (though I’ve only read the first Absolute edition), so I made a poem about it for them. I have another one that I’m still working on, also about a topic I know we each love. I was originally gonna write it down all nice and stylized and mail it to them but I couldn’t find the right materials I wanted so I’m just gonna post it here. Enjoy!

For there is life

And there is time

Beyond the gates

To sweet sublime

Where Dream is yours

And Dream is mine

Where lusted fates

Drink honeyed wine

To swim through stars

In seas thought parched

To fight dragons fire

In castles arched

Through journeys start

Till journeys end

When rest at pyre

Be met by old friend

For there is she

Oh comfort soul

To guide and care

Whom life is made whole

So take her hand

My sister’s hold

And speak a prayer

To spirit old

Just close your eyes

And cast the day

Let go the seam

And fade away

Lay at peace

And clear your breath

May find my Dream

And kindly Death

This is absolutely gorgeous, an amazing gift. Thank you so much. <3 It came at a time that I think we both really needed it, too, and if that isn’t Destiny, I don’t know what is. Thank you.

HOLY SHIT MATT! Really fucking gorgeous. I had to do this. It doesn’t do it justice, but still.


I think the rest of the internet needs to appreciate how incredibly amazing our friends are. They are the sweetest, most talented and generous people. Thank you, Matt, for the gorgeous poem, and thank you, Alex, for a beautiful Death to make it a visual knockout!